I have had a rough week. Notwithstanding my nose's refusal to behave like a healthy nose with its blatant displays of snot and stuffiness (gross I know), I have had to deal with something really quite taxing. If you remember, I was cast in two student films. One of those, I came to realize I was not particularly comfortable with. So, after much thought and prayer, I had to back out of it.
Now, anyone who knows me knows how much I absolutely HATE going back on my word. Especially when it comes to the arts. I believe that if you say you're going to do something, you do it. No if's, and's or but's. But I came to realize I was a bit too hasty in my initial acceptance of the role and Lord, I will never do that again. I had already gone to the first read-through, met the cast, connected with everyone, it was awesome. I absolutely loved it. Needless to say, it was not an easy decision. I do feel that it was the right thing to do though. I just cringe to think about all the extra work I've caused them. I was in every single scene. I'm absolutely torn up over this. I know that it's not the end of the world, and I just have to take comfort in the fact that I did not compromise my beliefs or values. If I let God lead me in the small things, maybe He'll trust me with the bigger things.
But man, that was hard.
Well, I guess that's about it for now.
A bien tot.
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